scary :(

I had the worst nightmare ever in my whole life!!!! I swear!
Really really really really really scary :'(

& it scared the shit outta me til i can't get back to sleeeeep!!
Am i so glad it's just a dream!

Elaborate later!

Okkk (explanation jumbled up...)
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This is real freaky, but i dreamt that my dad was about to leave us :( He's at the hospital and gave us a ring, wanting to say his last words (idk why aint we by his bed but anyway)...... i swear i am so freaking scared at that time man!
and i kept shouting into the phone "daddy can you dont go, daddy can you dont go" repeatedly. I still opened my eyes for a moment which means im awake abit but kept repeating the words, but Im quite sure im still in the dream!
I am very very scared to lose him :'( somemore, he called then i accidentally hung up!! wanted to call back but the number looked so weird & cant get thru. very scared he wont be able to call back again. Then he wanted to say afew words to my grandma.
& before that i was quarrelling with my sister coz she did not keep her word. & When my dad called one hp, idk what hp is that. I pulled my grandma from the sofa hear my dad on the phone and idk where the hell is my sis & mom at that time, in their rooms maybe?
SIGH, i cant get back to sleep after that, even after knowing it's just a damn dream. The dream nearly took my soul away. I think.. if i ever lost a love one, there'll be a possibility that i'll kill myself, &even after waking up, i am still feeling afraid :(

Im so glad it's just a stupid dream reallllyyyyyyyyy~~~
I love my dad!! thou yes, he is an irritant @ times & i shout @ him sometimes & he is always lazy in whatever i ask him for/ to do & he always dont wanna give us $$$ when we ask, but still (L)(L)(L) lah!

And I realised that I can never live without my family, they are soooo important to me :)
i luv my family + dear friends hardcore!!